I am learning that I am easily stuck where I am when I can't see the whole way through something. I'd like to see all the steps to where I'm going--and then I'll start moving. If I can't see how something will work all the way through, I can be immobilized until I get all of that information. Can anyone relate??
This hasn't been wildly apparent to me--cause I push past it enough to not have it completely disable me. Yet a wise mentor has called it out a few times in regards to my leadership and ministry, and I see the truth in it. And I've begun to recognize it in myself emotionally as well. God is gently showing me.
(It's good to recognize our "stuff", don't you think? Only then can we address and push past those obstacles to Abundant Life.)
Late this summer, during one of my-listen-to-God-and-write-it-down times, God spoke to me about moving forward. As I journaled about the things that were heavy on my heart that day--there were many unknowns ahead of me. Many emotions swirling through my head. I listed it all out in my favorite fabric covered notebook.
|That's my favorite notebook cover on the right. It makes me happy.|
(I sincerely hope you don't mind me sharing these intimate conversations God and I have. It is not my desire to make you uncomfortable, but rather to encourage you. )
He went on to say, "Lean heavily on Me so you do not fall. I have you. I HAVE YOU. You can let go of the safety ropes."
What?? What safety ropes? What are you talking about God?
God brought to mind the ropes course I did on a women's retreat this past spring. I've done ropes course adventures many times, and they don't really intimidate me much. But as I was finishing this course, friends cheering me on, I got a bit stuck. OK, more than a bit stuck. This part of the course had me on a wobbly cable that I needed to traverse from one tree to the next--maybe 25 feet away. To make it possible, there were poles attached to the cable I was walking on and the cable above me--but they were spaced further apart then my reach...and my "coach" from the camp said it would need to be a leap of faith.
|This is a friend on that part of the ropes course. She was not stuck at all. Of course...she could reach the poles. I know it doesn't look THAT scary.|
|I hope you enjoy these pics of me at my best--purple helmut and a little overwhelmed.|
Let go of my safety ropes. Hmmm. What are my safety ropes? I began to list...
People liking me.
Approval from important people in my life.
The sure and known.
Ugh. God, I don't think I know how to let go of these things. My knees shake and even though I know you are there, it's so hard...
"But you are stuck if you don't let go. You don't get to move forward. Stationary. Boring. My plan is always ahead...keep stepping forward and keep asking what the next step is in each of these situations you've brought to Me. I am the only one who truly knows. The rest are only illusions of safety. I am the only TRUE SAFE. I've got you. Do you trust me??"
I don't know if you get easily stuck like me. I don't know what situations in your life are hard to move forward in. I don't know what safety ropes you are tempted to hang on to for dear life.
God's plan is always ahead. Even if the next step is to wait--God can tell you--it is still moving forward in His plan for you. Ask Him. Trust Him. Let go.
I am. It's part of the Good life.