Friday, August 21, 2009

never a dull moment around here

My dear sweet sister Kerry is facing another trial. On April 29, Kerry delivered precious Sadie Grace, who had died three weeks before she was to be born. In their grief, Kerry and Jeff have honored God and clung to Him. Kerry is barely recovered physically from the C-section, and now is facing another surgery today on her throat. She learned about it yesterday. She is told she will be in pain this next week as she recovers and waits to hear results on the thing they are removing from her throat. (I would call is something else if anyone knew what it was.)

We've been joking about it the last few days--quoting My Big Fat Greek Wedding--and the "bubopsy" and calling it her "twin". You know, trying to push the scary thoughts away with humor, at least a little bit. However, when the specialist got serious on her yesterday, the situation lost all funny.

When you lose a child (I did too--but that's another post to come), one result I've noticed is that you are left feeling very vulnerable. I mean, it is highly out-of-order to bury your child. So, if that could happen, anything could. So it's VERY easy to feel weak in the knees, even about the tonsillectomy Kerry faces today.

I trust God. He has proven Himself faithful. But, I don't pretend to know His plan. Sometimes His plan is painful. Oh, how I'm praying that the results of this surgery show that it's nothing to worry about. And praying that in God's mercy Kerry, who has been faithful in the most trying of times, would not experience much of the pain they've warned her of. That healing would come quickly. She's already emotionally exhausted from grief...I know she is leaning hard on the Lord. We all are.

If you are someone who prays, please pray for Kerry. I came across these lyrics today...on a friends blog. I've never heard this song. They sum up where I am today.

I have to believe, He sees my darkness
I have to believe, He knows my pain
I have to lift up, my hands to Worship
Worship His name

I have to declare, that He is my refuge
I have to deny, that I am alone
I have to lift up, my eyes to the mountains, thats where my help, it comes from

He said that He’s forever faithful
He said that He’s forever true
He said that He can move mountains
If He can move mountains
He can move my mountain, He can move your mountain too

I have to stand tall, when the wind blows me over
I have to stand strong, when i’m weak and afraid
I have to grab hold, a hold of the garments, the garments of praise

He said that He’s forever faithful (oh i know it)
He said that He’s forever true
He said that He can move mountains
If He can move mountains
He can move my mountain, He can move your mountain too

I have to sing praise, when the hour is midnight
He unlocks these chains, that bind up my soul
my sin and my shame He has forgiven, and made me whole

He’s got everything under control
I have to believe

Lord I believe, help my unbelief
I have to believe in you
I have to believe

13 comments:

Kathryn said...

I will pray for healing and peace. I've never lost a child, but I've had 2 C-sections, and thats a roller-coaster ride in itself.

Jolanthe said...

Praying for her.

Jolanthe

Rachel Anne said...

My heart goes out to your friend. Yes, I will lift her up in prayer...that is so much to go through at one time. God bless her.

Beautiful lyrics to the song...I've never heard it but would like to know who sings it.

Thank you for linking in today. I look forward to getting to know you. Welcome to the Company Girls!

One More Equals Four said...

Lifting her up in prayer!

carikaufm said...

Dawn,

First of all, welcome to the Company Girls!

Most importantly, know that your sister and your family are in our prayers, both for physical and emotional healing in this time. I pray that God would wrap you all tightly in His loving arms and infuse you with the peace that surpasses understanding. Sending my love and prayers your way,
Cari

joyceandnorm said...

Said a prayer for her. Hope everything will go well. Praying for healing and comfort.

Welcome to Coffee too!

kimsilver said...

I haven't heard those lyrics before either....love 'em. I felt your words were my words today. Thanks for writing about this. :0)

Kara said...

Beautiful lyrics! I would be honored to pray for your sister. I lost a baby girl 1.5 years ago in a similar situation. I can't imagine dealing with the stress of this surgery on top of recovering from childbirth and burying your child. I will be lifting her...and your entire family...up.

And welcome! I'm new around here myself.

Reese said...

I am so sorry! Prayers for you and your family

Dani said...

I will definitely pray for your sister...and the rest of your family. I can't imagine, but God can...He knows exactly what it is like to lose a child...and His child willingly left. My husband says the only thing that comforts him about his dad dying is that if God gave Him the choice to come back he knows his dad would refuse. That sweet baby is all wrapped up in Jesus right now...waiting on her momma and daddy to join her there. I will pray for you all!

Marie said...

Hello Dawn - I am new to your blog and would love the opportunity to pray for your sweet sister, Kerry. I can't imagine what she has gone through and what she is currently up against. But what I do know is that we serve an awesome God who like the lyrics say, can move mountains! I am standing firm on His promises! Thank you for sharing.

Blessings,
Marie
http://emmacallsmemama.com

Kara said...

Dawn,

Thanks for stopping by my blog. I'm continuing to pray for your sister. Yes, I have lost 4 total. 3 were late 1st trimester miscarriages between my 2nd & 3rd children and the last one, in January 2008, was a little girl stillborn at 5.5 months. I'm so sorry for the loss of your son back in '99...I have a 4 month old son right now and can't imagine!

mommy4life said...

He can work all things together for good for those that live according to His purpose and He still heals today! Just whispered a prayer....

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